What is this “relax” of which you speak?

So I work 40 hours/week at a library and run Happy Fuzzy Yarn and half of Fairy Yarnmother (almost ready!  Really!), so you might think I would take some time to relax in whatever spare time I can find.  The problem is, I don’t seem to know how to relax anymore.  There’s a part of my brain that seems to think I should always be busy.  I blame the Puritans.  Damn Puritan work ethic.  But there’s also the fact that there’s just a lot to be done.  Of course, one could argue that I’m the one who decided the work needed to be done, for the businesses at least.

So what am I doing about it?  Heh.  I’m starting another business, of course!  Because I’m insane!  No, actually I decided to start making jewelry again (I used to make it years ago, but I’ve got lots of ideas for things that are totally different from what I used to make) and sell it as Calla Moon Jewelry Design.  Last weekend I ordered a lot of gemstones and silver and tools, and the orders are starting to arrive.  Oh.  My.  Such beautiful stones!  Let me just say that kyanite is one of the coolest stones ever!  And rubies!  Oh!  So beautiful!  I’m really excited!

You know, with dyeing yarn and making jewelry, it’s all about putting different elements together and making something absolutely stunning that I could just stare at for hours.  While it is work (and doing the rest of the business aside from the creative part is definitely work), it’s so fulfilling.  The work I do in the library is valuable and helps people, but I couldn’t do just that.  While it’s valuable and helpful, it isn’t beautiful.  I have to make beautiful things or I’m not alive.

I still need to work on making a bit of time to relax though.  If I can figure out just what relaxing is.

1 comment

  1. melissa

    saw your comment on havi’s blog and wanted to stop by. relax is tough, especially when i am so go-go-go that i can’t shut off my mind. i do a lot of walking to help myself unwind.

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